say WHAAAAT!

Everybody say yeahhh! ?

I can't believe i have the same laugh
as Hannah Montana -.-"

the urge of blogging

i'm shivering right now
feeling cold & clammy
teary eyes

will this dirty lil secret of mine turn out well?
if it ain't, will it change how you people out there treat me?
i know it will, in one way or another
i can foresee the looks on you guys the moment you see me
don't just say "its a small thing, of course i'll still be your friend"
it's what you think of me on the inside in the future
i hope it'll be good
i hope it will..

i don't know..first & foremost
will you, friends out there, still stay by my side
of who i'm gonna be or look like later?
(that's a hint)

those beloved ones should know what i'm talking about

but why must it be me?
i'm just praying hard
& am really really depressed & scared..
Allah please stay by me side

i'll tell this beforehand
if this thing were to turn out bad,
i hope i'll still have my friends
you may think it's ridiculous
but you're not going through my situation right now
it's taking its toll on me

tell me, in this modernize & egoistic world,
who would want to friend an ugly girl who ___her____
i'm not being pessimist but my chance of it turning out well,
is 50:50

& making it worst, prelim's next week
great..
i don't need your sympathy or whatever shit,
i just need all of you to accept of what i'm gonna be later
be it good or bad
i want you to treat me the same way you guys usually do, later on
that's all i ask for

thanks & wish me luck
yes, i need your luck
cause i'm not strong after all..